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Jon?

Wishin' one day I'll be the lucky man
Sunday. 8.14.05 8:17 pm
You don’t remember me
Like I remember you
Was not so long ago
You broke my heart in two


She turned seventeen last night. I remember her as just some skinny girl I met outside our school waiting for her mom to pick her up. Even then, she had a lot of friends, but I did too so I didn’t notice it I guess. When I see her now, my heart refuses to view her as the woman she’s becoming.. I wanna’ remember her as the girl who’d not only hold my hand, but hold me whenever she had the chance.

Last night was her birthday, and the party, was filled with a million and one people. Hyperbole. It didn’t feel as though there was anyone there other than me and her though, when she held me close than she usually does. She’s skinny, and only eats chocolate ( I baked her a chocolate cake for her birthday, and I think her mom questioned my masculinity for that ), but when she put her arms around me I thought she was the strongest person in the room. She held me tight, tighter than anyone I can remember and although I loved having her in my arms, I hesitated when she hugged me for the second time that day, when I was leaving the party about an hour after arriving. After the initial embrace, she left to go play the hostess role with the 999,999 other people there, playing their truth or dare, air hockey and trying to look pretty while I sat with her nerd of a brother and watched the walls.

I tried my hardest not to look at her throughout the evening.. I didn’t want to let on that I was as bored as I was, didn’t want her to know that I wasn’t having as much fun as anyone there. ‘Twas her night, ‘ya know? She was happy.. I could tell from her eyes, and I didn’t wanna’ be the one to make her smile fade and that twinkle in her eye disappear. So, I sat in a corner with her dorky 12 year old brother who kept touching me. I was tempted to go T.I. on ‘em with the ‘ You don’t know me ‘, but each time I saw his face I’d remember why I was putting myself through it, ‘cause his face is just like hers.

I feel as though I had wasted my time there.. I only enjoyed two moments : When she opened the door and hugged me, and before I walked out the door and she held me.
29 Comments.


I like hugs
» redintersectsme on 2005-08-14 09:47:33

i wonder if i can leave comments when i'm not a member...oh well i'll see..
» anh anh anh anh anh (24.0.84.51) on 2005-08-14 10:04:16

wow it does =] looking forward to seeing you again jon!!
» anh (24.0.84.51) on 2005-08-14 10:04:53

because i am not really into that mellow type of music,
it is not called a nu-contest. i meant a new one. i just thought since this is NU-tang, it was relavent to saw nu instead of new. but, yeah, there is one tomorrow. so come check that out. (monday).
» zero_jak on 2005-08-14 10:56:43

A moment can last a longer time, if you cherish it.
» juiCyy on 2005-08-15 06:45:13

That's such an eloquent entry.
» bifocalLs on 2005-08-16 06:26:16

hi there
Hi, aww thank you for the comment. I like recieving them specially if i'm new. hmmm...i wish i could give you some good advice about how you are feeling at a time like that...but I haven't been in that situation yet. i'm sorry. ohh i'm sorry you're already in school too! unless you like school then that is great! Try to have fun this year!
» Rie on 2005-08-16 09:55:33

the only reason i like them so much is because of the battle system. I love it when you get to move freely...but when only one character is moving freely throughout the whole game...I tend to not like it (example tales of fate...I think that's the name).
» Ajibalaji89 on 2005-08-16 10:41:48

awe
that is so sad, it sounds like you really love someone huh
» KellyKay on 2005-08-17 03:43:46

you're my favorite on this thing!
» juiCyy on 2005-08-17 04:49:04

wow nice stuff i really like it and thanks for the nice comment
» erinnicole96 on 2005-08-17 09:46:16

I've come across your page before... I added it to my favourites but I haven't been around much lately. I like your entries.
» okidpokie on 2005-08-17 09:46:36

can you believe
hey again, thanks for the understanding, yep thats all i wanted...but I didn't get it...so thats usually how it is with me and I just forget about it. but yeah I haven't found anyone yet and I'm 20!!
» Rie on 2005-08-18 08:09:50

Awww.. I agree... Hugs are nice... :-P
» Molls on 2005-08-18 12:35:53

Wow.
I don't know whether to be happy or sad for you. My guess is happy because even if it doesn't last forever, one moment can make you happy for hours, or days, or even longer.
I really miss being in love.
I really appreciated your comment, by the way. It really makes me happy that a simple interaction or mere situation within a day can make someone think of something I said. If that makes sense(?) Sometimes I feel as though what I have to say does not bear much.
» hilikus on 2005-08-18 01:28:50

Thanks for the comment. I didn't go all out on my rant as i thought i was. I love your background, i have someone who i feel the same way about ^^
» (65.184.148.2) on 2005-08-18 01:49:03

forgot to leave my name on the last comment, hehe
» ColdRush (65.184.148.2) on 2005-08-18 01:49:50

Thank you for letting me know about the tshirt !! : ) Awesome Awesome..!!!
» aisforapple on 2005-08-18 05:06:18

i like your entries... i'll be visiting again~
» merrick on 2005-08-19 09:46:35

awww.
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» Cher_lyn on 2005-08-19 01:16:57

mine too
sorry its hard to read on mine to but someone told me to check out createablog.com for backgrounds so at the moment im just playing around = )
» KellyKay on 2005-08-19 01:21:49

yo
thanks for the coment homie:)
» KellyKay on 2005-08-19 08:08:18

I was gonna comment on how hearttwangy your post is, but I have to ask. How exactly was her lil brother touching you? And yes, mountains make sense. Cuz then I'd just have to roll down again.
» theZEBRA on 2005-08-19 08:54:12

nutang is a growth undustry, friend. We want more friendly people here. Don't worry, nutangs not goin anywhere.
» redintersectsme on 2005-08-20 09:38:53

PFF! and the fact that I stayed with you the whole time means nothing. fo-get you too! Just kidding I understand. -love.
» of_your_mind on 2005-08-20 10:26:57

awww
when i read you entrys..there so sweet..::sigh:: awww and thats the same thing seawalk and C-walk..you knew what i was talking about..lol
» your_in_safe_mode on 2005-08-20 09:14:47

Love
Love is a funny thing. To think one thing can cause us so much joy and pain. It's worth it.
» JB (24.118.41.23) on 2005-08-21 12:47:30

DDR was and still is somewhat a favorite past time of mine. I used to go to a place called Wonderland here and dance myself away. One of my all time favorite songs was kick the can haha.
» bifocalLs on 2005-08-21 11:48:49

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