Saturday. 7.7.07 11:03 am
7 years of frustration then hit her ears with abrasion
As I laced her with my tale of lust, tears and anticipation
Her reaction was a face of fakeness;
Told me she was flattered, but within a tone lacking any amazement
8th grade.. That's when we met. Or, that's when I first saw you.. I doubt you ever noticed me much.
I noticed you.
I had no idea that she knew who I was. I remember seeing her every now and then and taking solace in the fact that she defied the same stereotype that I did; our affinity for literature seemed juxtaposed to the tone of our skin. I caught a lot of shit ( <<<
a legal term I picked up at the pre law institute.) in school from my football teammates because I always carried a book with me.
I'd read before and after practice
I read before and after games
I read before and after lifting weights.
I even read during band, between songs. Now that I think about it, it wasn't so much a stereotype of African Americans as it was a stereotype of teenagers in general. Anyway...
She asked me to go skating last month.
I declined. (I knew there were no skates big enough for my freakazoid size 15 feet)
And things were up in the air between us senior year. She liked me, and I knew, but when she wanted to take that leap between good friends who went out to being an actual couple, I backed away. Partially because I liked someone else (who turned out to be a bipolar girl who was cold one day, loving the next.) and partially because I was scared.
I didn't flat out reject her or nothing I just didn't say yes. She got the message and was indifferent toward me throughout the rest of our senior year.
I called her week or so after graduation to tell her that I wanted her in my life. I confessed, rather easily, that there were a handful of people that I wanted to keep in touch with from our class(Five.) and I did not want my apprehension to end us. That eased the tension between us a bit.. And we hung out a few times over the summer, and once when I came back home for Christmas. So, it's summer time, and she calls me up and asked if I wanted to go skating. Ice skating. Which wasn't really my thing..
Our first ( and only ) date was at Barnes and Nobles ; we sat on the floor and read books.
(Just call me Casanova.) So the ice skating thing.. I dunno. I got to thinking about her last week and said to myself, 'Self that isn't such a bad idea,' so I called her up and asked her to go skating when I get back.
She said yes. I told her I was a little scared, but she reassured me.
Once you fall the first time, it gets easier and easier because you're not scared anymore.
Kind of like love.
Yeah..
sounds nothing like my life. G'luck!
» Helena on 2007-07-07 02:28:36
RE: i have a gba, but im broke T-T
maplestory is actually a free online mmorpg i dont remember, but its online and a ton of people play it. its downloadable, its really simple and nice if you like that kinda things ^^
other rpgs on gba that ive played include summon night. and whats an emulator??? @.@
» crz4manga on 2007-07-07 02:38:31
Kudos The way you script your entries is marvelous. Usualy I'm not one for poetics, but this is just good. And actually, ice staking isn't really as bad as it sounds. It'd be a good excuse for her to hold your hand and guide you around for a bit at least.
DC was...interesting. It felt a bit like Seattle, just with more a more "suit and tie" kind of feel. As with any big city there's the occasional homeless person asking for a smoke, but they generally don't get in your face. If you're going to be around the Supreme Court, watch out for those lobbyist, because there's ALWAYS a handful of them lurking around -_-
» The-Muffin-Man on 2007-07-07 03:23:59
Try not to knock into anybody if you're reading when you skate. :P
» randomjunk on 2007-07-07 05:47:06
good luck with the skating. I've never been and I know for sure that I'd make a fool of myself since I have no idea what I'd be doing.
» LostSoul13 on 2007-07-07 07:09:26
Bookstore date??? I want one!
The less gross version of licking your skin to tell when you've accumulated too much chlorine is to just take a really hot shower... but that tends to peel off what little skin you have left.
» Someones_Muse on 2007-07-07 10:44:08
Ice skating really isn't that horrible. The first time I did it I was actually pretty good... though I acted like a bumbling fool just so the guy I was with would help me along. Which is something you should try with this girl.
I do have some advice however: be sure to wear thick socks. Or multiple socks. I have symmetric scars on my feet because of the gashes caused by those skates. That part wasn't fun.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-07 10:49:36
Ah, well, she actually likes you, which will make it that much easier. The guy wasn't all that into me at the time, not more than friends, anyways.
Funny, the guy of which I speak is actually Michael of about 8 months ago. A month before we started dating. Oy vey. I did write all about it when it happened, but all that is gone since all my old blogs got deleted. Very upsetting but at the same time very good, because the less evidence there is that I once thought highly of Michael, the better.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-07 11:05:29
Yeah, it doesn't often work. It only fools other people.. but it never fools yourself.
Sucks, eh?
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-08 01:05:55
Love... I won't understand it right now.. I've never ice skated before so tell me after you've skated.. sounds fun.
» Nuttz on 2007-07-08 08:22:43
me becoming a shark? my god. i prefer to be a cat.
» renaye on 2007-07-08 11:51:09
well that settles it you're just too damn deep for me, Dilated.
That sentence had a few D's in it.
Dilated, diving deeper down into dark and dreadful dreams. I should have made that happier. Dilated, daintily dancing in the delightful dandelioned dell. (How did Dilated dance? I dare not tell!)
» Zanzibar on 2007-07-09 12:04:59
♥ Awww.
Dude, I totally agree with Zan, "you're just too damn deep for me"
TOO!
» ShaShaBoo on 2007-07-09 04:01:40
that's so cute! BARNES AND NOBLE!!
My ex and I went to Border's once. But it was boring 'cause he wasn't really into it. Blah.
Good luck, Jon! =D
» invisible on 2007-07-09 11:50:50
♥ Why, do you like it?
It's bumping, huh? Haha.
It's called The Piano by Jazztronik.
» ShaShaBoo on 2007-07-11 12:12:49
o_o
Wow.
That's a very discouraging story. I like my hair.
But I already planned on staying away from guys. Just sick of them.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-12 12:01:53
Way to stick to asexuality!
"Screw dating!
...After my date tonight."
Hahah, but, if it goes well, don't not ask her out on another date just 'cause I hate relationships and I'm dragging you into the pits of my hatred too.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-12 01:06:43
No, not everyone is completely fake. But the majority of people (especially teenagers around my age) care more about pop culture than actual meaningful things like wars and such.
Michael, for instance, used to talk about science and interesting things, now if you try to have a conversation with him, the highlight of the conversation will either be, "omgzz me and my friends made bombs and blew shit up today!!" or "omgzz i totally hooked up with some slut today!!"
I've met so many people like that it's not even funny. So, maybe I am jaded, but not unrightfully so.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-14 05:23:40
Hahaha, gotta work hard to be in that industry. I'm starting off right now. It's all about connections. And yeah, maybe I'll suggest a MMORPG to promote Nutang. I'll put you in there as the magical troll that lives under the bridge that helps Dave on his quest. =)
» PsychoEnigma on 2007-07-16 01:45:41
Really??? You do that? I wonder how people coment on you.. HAHhHAH
» Xboyz on 2007-07-16 03:05:42
Amputate my nose??? Hmm.. that's a good idea if the flu is not going away but it is going away so.. maybe next time. Born on Friday the 13th eh?? Maybe we can conduct some experiments on your luck.. XD
» Nuttz on 2007-07-16 03:56:04
Experiments to prove that you have good luck. Maybe we should tie you to the railway track and see if you can escape before the train turns you into a pancake... that kind of experiments.. no amputating of limbs of course.. unless if you want to see if they can reattach themselves, you're free to try it out.
» Nuttz on 2007-07-16 09:08:53
Just paying you back for every entry you've ever written, ever.
» Zanzibar on 2007-07-17 08:40:21
Good luck.
» alexsedotcx on 2007-07-18 06:46:01
trauma center is way fun
i started playing it on the DS. it isnt that hard until you get to the extreme missons
its basically the same game on the wii but slightly easier, with new operations and features
» alexsedotcx on 2007-07-22 10:29:22
Very possible. But if that was all that bothered me about him, it definitely wouldn't stop me from dating him. Now my strong dislike of dating? That might prove hindrance.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-24 01:08:09
I loooooooooove stay what you are.
» alexsedotcx on 2007-07-24 11:07:38
Have you ever seen them live?
Let's just say, it's an experience.
» alexsedotcx on 2007-07-24 11:12:39
i dont like ribs either. yay for being cool. :]
» bananaface on 2007-07-25 10:11:05
No! If you spoiled it, there's a chance I would cry. Do you want to make me cry?!
Also, I read the summary on Amazon.com for free food for millionaires, seems pretty interesting, so I'll look into it whenever I get around to going to a bookstore.
» Le_Jes on 2007-07-26 11:18:12
i decided to live at home and save some money. plus, the dorms at my particular college at ucsd look like cabins. kinda weird.
» dis1girl on 2007-07-27 01:36:02
I didn't really call anyone after graduation.
» ikimashokie on 2007-07-27 11:02:59
Right now?
And you can drive me around in your new car?
I SUPPOSE I could miss school for that.
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